14 June – I achieved my target of 50 firsts a few days ago, but in fact there were quite a few more firsts that it didn’t feel right to share in this way. This was the first time I sat in a funeral car. Once was for my lovely stepfather, who died last October, and the other time was for my dear Nana, who died on 11 February at the age of 98. I suppose it’s what happens when you reach 50 – more evidence of how short life can be, and how quickly it can pass you by. More people to miss.
Is it okay to share this? I’m not sure – a blog is that weird thing between a facebook post and a diary entry, like writing for someone looking over your shoulder. The point of this challenge was not to do big things (or brag about them) but to notice what is around me. And on reflection that did start to happen. I spent a lot of time looking up events and places where I live, and began to appreciate that York is a city where lots of small and community events are happening all over the place. I took myself out of my comfort zone a few times, and I also did most of the challenges with friends and family, which meant a lot to me. I didn’t visit John O’Groats, but I sponsored someone who did a coast to coast cycle ride and someone else who took part in the Live Below the (Poverty) Line challenge – challenge by proxy, maybe.
Anyway, it’s one year since I turned 50 so I’m putting this blog on Facebook for any friends to read – or not.
I still haven’t been to Rio, the moon or John O’Groats, read War and Peace, seen a manatee, driven a Jaguar or swum the Channel.
But there’s always next year.